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韓國總統府稱,塔利班同意釋放19名在阿富汗的韓國人質 (路透社) 08月 28日 星期二 07:57PM路透 首爾 電—韓國 青瓦台週二表示，塔利班 將釋放目前他們手中所有的19名韓國人質。一位總統府發言人說，人質真正獲釋可能還需要一些時間。韓國同意某些塔利班的條件，例如停止韓國公民在阿富汗 進行基督教傳教，人質才因而得以自由。(完)

–編譯 李婷儀;審校 李中慶

Call me cold-blooded or anything, because I always believe the blood of martyrs always cry out to the highest Heaven.

Throughout the entire Korean Hostage Incident, I have never prayed for safety of those hostages. If they must die to achieve their purposes, then die they must. As a fellow cross-bearer, I think those Korean workers should have understood this part before heading to Afghanistan.

Now, what a tough dilemma they are facing there - Lives of 19 Koreans vs. prohibiting Koreans to evangelize in Afghanistan.

For me, the choice is simple. Life is Precious. Whichever option saves life will be the option I take. The best take in my opinion, is martyrdom. Not that I fancy blood, but I understand how our voices are weak but our blood is loud.

念舊日於香港的茶餐廳，家譜財產性器橫飛。百亂中一杯奶茶、一客多士，是根本地與地區節拍形成強烈對比。

奶茶之香，在於小啖時先入嘴時的奶味、接上是奶與茶間逃不了的混沌、加上入到喉嚨之後在舌上陰雲不散的茶味，缺一則成不了『奶茶』。一乾而盡，是混沌的深化，是草草的過渡，結果就只有把『事情』幹完的份兒，了無情趣。

多士更是複雜。多士的脆度，牛油的多寡，奶油的品牌選擇，能夠完全表達一個人的 lifestyle。多士就像是結了婚的人一樣，一切都是選擇與平衡。因方便而失衡了，不論家庭、工作、靈命都不能幸免於難。

浮沉於這樣的執著之中，也是我的輕鬆。

而下是我星期二回家後，自製一年多沒有食過的奶油多。

1. 壽星公煉奶 - 傳統的象徵

2. 開洞

3. 很簡單科學的認用

4. 其實是二十年前見著小學畢業、但給我錢過來美國讀書的父親所做過的事

5. 是慢慢的，快只是劣質的表現。

6.牛油要用 Block(磚) 和 Salted 的，Margarin (人做牛油) 絕對不能。

7. 2-3mm 就夠了，正正中中。

8. 容許牛油在爐內容掉

9. 加上奶油

10. 吃

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輕鬆過後，不知何時，又回到了實在。

看著，聽著，一切的無奈；解決的方法可能就是 ” I don’t know ” 的態度吧。

我真的很想知道我在做什麼。

六時三十分起床。

六時五十分出門口。

七時三十分到達公司門口 + 車上小睡。

八時正睡醒步入公司。

八時三分開電郵。

八時九分開 Google Reader看 blogs 與新聞。

八時四十五分等到應該在八時半出現的上司。

九時三十分開始 “training”。

十一時完成 “training” 一部分。

十一時三分被拒絕開始接聽 client 電話，原因是 『我們是一間非謀利機構，所有的東西都要數月才能完成，沒有必要推自己至極限，我們有大把時間』

十一時十分與另一個做 assessment 的女人同時被 trained 。

十二時十分丁丁飯盒。

十二時二十五分把飯盒收好。

十二時三十分到車上午睡。

十二時五十九分回到辦公室。

一時十分開始上網。

一時二十分開始不滿意家中主電腦死掉而發洩中。

一時三十分尋找有關 PS3 的資料和價錢。

二時五十分開始讀 Cerebal Palsy 的資料。

三時許希奇神的作為。

四時半上司突擊。

五時正准時走人。

六時半去到0普通話老師家裡。

七時四十五分臣服於疲倦之下生撤退之意。

八時開車到 great Mall。

八時十分選擇不去 ValleyFair/Blossom Hill。

八時二十五分到 Great Mall。

八時三十五分買完trousers、希奇自己的 size。

八時四十分開車回家。

八時五十分到家。

九時準備明天的飯盒。

九時十分決定不去跑步，而留在家中看 Acts of Worship 。

九時三十分準備完明天和今天的食物。

九時三十五分在清潔之後把食物端到沙發。

九時三十八分開始看戲與吃飯。

十時十五分暫停了戲去洗碗。

十時二十分繼續看戲。

十一時七分看完。

十一時二十分沖完涼。

十一時五十分 blogging….

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我在做什麼。

這就是  Routine 嗎？

where is the love?

Ok, I asked too many questions.

People like Howard Gardner have talked of multiple intelligences. It is basically a measurement of people’s intelligence like the usually IQ score that many people uses. Gardner argues that his theory of multiple intelligence is “better” because the measurement of IQ is incapable of fully comprehending a person’s potential. Factors like creativity, has nothing to do with one’s IQ and yet has huge impacts on a person’s daily life.

This is the “standard” classification of all human on earth under the IQ scale.

And we should be grateful that Chinese is not so descriptive… as 白癡 can say it all!

Personally I am against the establishment of IQ tests as measurement of one’s ability/potential/intelligence. But I found it strange to actually see how the establishment actually helps people here in the United States.

As enforced by a Federal Law named Lanterman Act, all people in US diagnosed with developmental disability is qualified for free services for life according to their severity of disability. Along with cerebal palsy 腦性麻痺, autism 自閉症, epilepsy 癲癇 along with Mental Retardation (defined as IQ 70 or below) are all eligible for the services under the Lanterman Act.

While these people are suffering from those developmental disabilities, most of them are still capable of working in the competitive work market, competing in Special Olympics (many of them are invincible bowlers…), singing national anthems, etc. All they need are services that will help them reach their inborn potentials.

If you have any questions regarding those disabilities and the services, please feel free to email me - ayuen at ggrc dot org.

I don’t get paid by case, so don’t feel like I am advertising  here. I just wish my knowledge can help people understand more about this commonly neglected population.

*I found my email address funny… i am often called ar yuen in real life and my email address is now ayuen… lol

This blog will no longer serve its original purpose, if there was one…

The direction is unknown.

Yet it will go on.

香江人語：最是依依童輩紀─ 給小詩鈞的一封公開信

Original Link

「人生固然苦短，但自己腳步匆匆，只會更糟蹋了日子。勇氣的背後，更需要大智慧，這才能造就大勇。」
歲月不同風景異，前途霧困無由訴。最是依依童輩紀。珍細碎，何須大步枝頭過。

日子翩翩不獨抱，蕭何路盡非常態。曲水長流天已白。池中物，千秋萬歲識功業。

─《漁家傲．識功業》，詞：陳文威 (仿范仲淹《漁家傲》)

九歲的詩鈞，你的一封公開信，我讀到了。

叫我最感動的，是年紀小小的你，為了幫助十四歲的兄長怡謀入讀英國牛津大學，以剛唸完小一之年，毅然攻讀英國的預科(中六)課程，使父親得以赴英，滿足了牛津伴讀的要求。

如今，你已取得入讀大學的資格，希望香港的大學能取錄你。因為，父親己為怡謀傾囊了。

詩鈞，你沒有強調自己的過人天資，你說，重要的是勇氣、努力和正確的方法。

這，正是你過人之處。

你的公開信，洋洋近千言，寫來情理並茂，文字通達，確是不簡單。

我知道香港教統局正籌辦天才學院，專門協助天才兒童在常規學校以外，修讀一些高級課程。我相信，你的升學問題，是不難解決的。說不定，這個時候，你已經踏進了大學門檻。

真正的問題，其實你在信中也觸及了，就是心理輔導。

上天給我們安排了童年和少年歲月，必然有它的理由。人生的成長，不僅僅有賴於學府。

杜甫《春夜喜雨》：好雨知時節，當春乃發生。隨風潛入夜，潤物細無聲。學習也當如是，細細的感受，緩緩的吸收，甚至在不知不覺中浸淫，誇張點說，就是滲進了我們的肌膚，連細胞也改變了面貌。

幼苗成長，最喜春雨，倘若換作夏天急驟的暴雨，恰如一下子要把天上的水都倒下來，是吃不消的。

中國古代以十二歲為一紀，童輩紀，說的就是這個。人生的第一紀，彌足珍貴。童言無忌，正因如此，才可以有無窮樂趣，創意也在其間得以孕育。

珍細碎，何須大步枝頭過。生命?一些看似細碎，沒有甚麼分量的東西，卻很可能是無聲勝有聲。飛上枝頭，自然有它的風光，只是不一定合適於童年。

日子翩翩不獨抱，蕭何路盡非常態。我們固然要學懂爭取，但更要學懂分享，與眾同樂，才是較高的一個境界，亦能從中得到啟悟，調整自己的路向。助漢高祖建國立業的蕭何，可以不擇手段地為自己開路，世上就是有這樣的人，頭腦簡單便識破不了。

曲水長流天已白。池中物，千秋萬歲識功業。有情曲水，不避險阻而流淌，直至亮白，為的是甚麼？今天的池中物，往往是到了他日才看得清楚，才可以論功業的。

說到底，許多事情都是急不來的；光是急，也沒有好處。人生固然苦短，但自己腳步匆匆，只會更糟蹋了日子。勇氣的背後，更需要大智慧，這才能造就大勇。

早年癱瘓了的霍金，在一般人的感覺?，他的日子是過得非常慢的，然而，他對宇宙的思考，卻是許多人都跟不上的。快與慢，往往不可以常態而論之。

詩鈞，今後的路子該怎樣走，該好好選擇啊！

BY:

陳文威 作家，香港藝術發展局審批員(文學)；上漢下漢中文網站(chinesehood.org)總監、主筆；go2tutor.com網站「文大夫信箱(為文之道)」、「親子事件簿(創作童話)」專欄作家。

This is by favorite column among all the newspaper available in Hong Kong. 陳文威 and a few others are my favorites columnist.

Life is like a giant faulty Window XP in an office setting. Whenever you want to do something, pop up tells you that you don’t have “sufficient privileges” or “not enough resources.”

Opening up my always-full yahoo mailbox, I came across a monthly email from Urbana (intravarsity). Usually I would not even open it, but this time it attracted me like a magnet. “Following God” is the article’s name but it was a sermon by Lawrence Young from Urbana 61, i.e. Urbana in year 1961. Driven by curiosity of the style of speaker from the past. I read through the description and became totally absorbed in the lengthy article. Here is the link to the article.

“Discipleship identifies us with a Person. It involves us in a program. And it ensures us a power by means of which this program may be fulfilled, carried out through our lives and testimony.”

The following items can things the speaker regarded as “simple” and “basic”:

• Discipleship identify us with a Person, Jesus Christ, unto death, and let Him be the center of our affection, attention and interest;
• Disciples are missionaries in the program of global evangelism , not a question of Whether, but where, how and when;
• we are entitled His power, not for our ecstatic experiences but for the purpose/grace upon which we are bestowed, so that we may be the banner of His kingdom.

Profoundly simple items, yet will strike the deepest fear in the heart of the Enemy. It is a good demonstration of “Truth”. For if it is True, then it is Eternal, regardless of time. Something that was True in 1961 must also be True in 2007. This article has nicely demonstrated that.

The following block is my favorite quote from the sermon. It is basically warning me that allying with the Enemy for its power is equated to forsaking the title “Christian”, which had walked on the borderline for a while. The title “Christian” itself means nothing to me, but it implies the separation with God. For that, I echo what Young said in the article - Without Him, we can do nothing. To me, to be able to do nothing is good as dead.

If your faith in Christ is mixed with reservations, quibblings, and rebellings - now I do not mean that there is never a temptation to these things, nor at times a succumbing to the temptation - but if willfully, knowingly, you allow a spirit of rebellion to remain within your heart and are content to have it there, then you have no right to say that you are a Christian in the Bible sense of the term.

If my current job infer Separation, quit it I will.

It is 10pm and I can’t believe I have to sleep now, since I have to wake up by 6.20am tomorrow. So much for working in SF and San Mateo huh? Well, I welcome myself to the “market”. I also declare myself no longer a nothing-to-lose/use fresh grad. Funny how there are things that I don’t want to lose are losing away, and things I want to lose keep sticking to me. Anyway…

Phonetic Alphabets… I never knew those A for Adam, B for Boy thing is called a phonetic alphabet system and has a long history too…  I am going to operate on phone a lot thus needing to learn one of the many system - NY Police.

A for Adam, B for Boy, C for Charlie, D for David, E for Edward, F for Frank, G for George, H for Henry, I for Ida, K for King, L for Lincoln, M for Mary, N for Nora, O for Ocean, P for Peter, Q for Queen, R for Roberts, S for Sam, T for Tom, U for Union, V for Victor, W for William, X for X-ray, Y for Young, Z for Zebra.

The idea of waking @ 6.20am is fucking gross.